My physical body was born in the former Yugoslavia in 1962, but not me. I was never born and I will never die. I have a relationship with my body, but not with the place where my body was born. The country known as Yugoslavia was a Fairyland, Fantasyland, Castle in the Sky;  a Utopia of whimsical vision that was created by geo-political, socio-engineers from dark corners of the sociopath collective mind. We can call this collective mind, ‘social collective unconsciousness’, ‘reptilian ego-mind’, or the ‘illuminati social order’.  This country collapsed from inside forces that were controlling it by New World Order puppets that created the country in the first place. At that time, I started to awaken to my bodilessness. I disconnected from physical abstractions, society patterning, and consequently started disconnecting from my past unconscious patterns. I came to realize that no system can be true to reality. All systems are just fabrications of the collective mind, its thoughts, ideas, theories, belief systems, verbalizations, interpretations, repetitions, memories and projections. That’s how every system is born, the pathology of the ego-mind needs to repeat the same known reality, and control that reality eternally.

Now that I know I am not my social mind, my collective ego-mind, and I am not my body, I now know who I am. I am nothing and I am nobody! Society has nothing to do with my being; they did not create my being.  My physical father and mother did not give birth to my being; I have been since the beginning of time, and I will be after the end of time (if there is any beginning or any end). Even to say that ‘I am’ is to be some-thing and some-body. The Infinite Consciousness IS! The consciousness in my being was not born in Yugoslavia, or in the physical body called Ivan Rados. The physical body of Ivan Rados was born in the Infinite Consciousness. The Infinite Consciousness is expressing itself in individual experiences of being Ivan Rados. The physical birth through my mother and my father was not the birth of ‘my’ consciousness. The physical birth was just a necessity, a requirement to provide a possibility of giving real birth to One-self. The real birth is out of the social ego-mind and all its imprints, structures, thoughts and attachments. Thinking was borrowed by others. It knows nothing beyond birth and death. The mind exists between birth and death. That means, in order to give One-Self a real birth, the consciousness has to go beyond all mind.
 
Since as far back as I can remember, when I was in my child body, I used to twist my right ankle one several times a month. I was very independent and quite a wild child.  I would spend all day long out in the wilderness near our home, running free, climbing trees, playing in the rain, getting dirty, and not having a care in the world whatsoever. The twisted ankle did not bother me at all.  Sometimes, I would stay at home for a few days so my swollen ankle could heal.  My grandma would slice an onion, sprinkle salt on it and apply this onion to my ankle.  After a day or so, I would be ready to get back into jumping over rocks again. That twisted ankle continued to create a problem into my adulthood.

In 1992, the war broke out in Yugoslavia. That very same year, I moved my physical body to Leeds, England. How did this come about?  One month before the war broke out, I received an intuitive signal that the collapse of an artificial system would soon be taking place, and that I would have to act Now and leave the country. I wanted to go somewhere; anywhere, it didn’t matter where.  My mind was very optimistic though and wanted me to stay. It kept reminding me of my family, friends, reputation and  respect I had gained in the community, along with all the possessions I owned. The main argument with the mind was, ‘If I move somewhere else, I will have to start over again from the beginning’.  My intuition to change, however, was stronger than my intellectual, logical and rational attachments.

In England, the twisting of my right ankle continued, even while walking on flat surfaces. I visited a few podiatrists, osteopaths and other specialists. After many examinations, the medical experts could still not find anything wrong. The only recommendation I received from the specialists was, ‘Be more careful when walking’, which means ‘Be in fear’. One doctor asked me, ‘Why do you twist your ankle?’ I told him, ‘I don’t twist my ankle. I don’t have any control over it. If I had any control over it, then I wouldn’t twist it. I am not a masochist, but my mind is. So, if you say there is nothing wrong physically with my ankle, and I trust your expertise, then it seems that the entire problem is in my mind. You see, I am not my mind, so since I am not twisting my ankle, then the mind is twisting it, right? Why? I have lived in this body for 35 years, and had approx. 100 twists of the ankle per year, so it seems logical that something -or somebody in my mind - doesn’t want me to break the ankle. Maybe it wants me to suffer, or is it reminding me about something I have to be aware of, heal, harmonize, understand, or what? Logically, the mind! There is no one else in my reality, apart from my thoughts. You see, the thoughts are all around, jumping and confusing. I don’t own my mind, it owns me. You have to understand, the mind is not mine; I don’t own it and cannot control it. My mind is collective mind; it controls me. It belongs to collective Yugoslavian mind, and that mind belongs to an international creditors’ mind, and they belong to the Illuminati mind, and the Illuminati mind belongs to the ‘Wizard of Oz’. The great Wizard represents a collective unconsciousness. I don’t have any control over it. It wants to control me. It represents my dysfunctional family, dysfunctional country, my hopelessness, my failures, my frustrations, and my fear.  Do you have any control over your mind, doctor? The collective mind functions through the lowest common denominator. It is an instrument to control my consciousness, and my consciousness is clinging to it. So, I have to do something. What can I do? There is no other way but to disconnect from the mind. But, in order to disconnect, I have to understand the mechanical parts of it, its strengths and its weaknesses’.  I was almost on fire, burning with passion and determination to find out the reason for the frustrating state of my being; the ankle was just another reminder. I must have sounded pretty insane to the poor doctor. He then responded, ‘It seems that there is nothing I can do about your ankle, and neither can you. You have to live with its weakness for the rest of your life. If we had found some physical evidence, we might have found a cure, but in the meantime, I would suggest you seek the help of a psychiatrist or psychologist. The trauma from the war in your country has created bitterness in you’. I gave him a big smile, warm hug and said, ‘You are right, my mind is in madness, and I need to find a cure for it’.

After his visit, I was contemplating what he had said and he was right on one account - trauma. But that trauma was not from the war in my country. I don’t have any country, I did not have one before, and I will never have one afterwards. I did not experience any trauma from the war, because I did not experience one (war). I did not listen to my mind argument which was attempting to induce me to stay and be optimistic. If I had stayed, my life would have taken another road with all kinds of other experiences, and I can only assume they would not have been very pleasant. Then from where did the trauma come from - my childhood? I could not connect the dots between the experiences of my dysfunctional family with the twisting of my right ankle. The more I contemplated it, the more confused I became.  I was lost in thinking. I had to draw the line and stop thinking, to decide to listen to my intuition. My intuition was stronger than the power of the mind. Intuition was telling me that ‘to be an optimist, one would have to gather the energy of pessimism:  be open, receptive, without any belief systems or logical conclusions.’  I sensed the trauma was imprinted in my mind from some event, or experience that was stored from the past that I was not aware of. I knew I could not stop thinking, but I could be more attentive and aware. I could witness the thoughts and maybe in between two thoughts, my consciousness could guide me through the intuition and heal me. Consequently, the only solution would be to witness consciousness and patiently wait.

Then, I started to have an intuitive urge to go to Egypt, to enter the Kings Chamber in the Kofu Pyramid, and to meditate in front of the Step Pyramid in the Dakar Saqqara Desert. I did not have a clue why I needed to go to Egypt and I also didn’t have the money to travel. I decided to listen to the intuition and wait until the right time arrived. In 2001, I emigrated from Leeds, North England in the U.K. to Vancouver, British Columbia, Canada and continued to twist my ankle.  This time, the ankle was becoming very painful and severely swollen. Almost every month, I would be bed-ridden for 5-6 days or more, and not be able to walk. The urge to go to Egypt started etching deep in my soul, but the ‘right time’ still hadn’t come yet.  On May 29, 2005, during my usual morning meditation, I received the message from One-Self, ‘there is no future. The right time is right NOW”. I opened my eyes with a revelation. What am I waiting for? I have to go NOW. The moment I come to the realization that the mechanical ticking clock is the mind stopping me to follow my intuition; everything started happening so fast, easily and effortlessly, in miraculous flow in the moment.  Then, in September 2005, I was in Egypt for 12 days. I entered the Kings Chamber, went to the most important temples along the Nile River, and had a stunning journey.  This does not compare, however, to the dazzling vision I had while meditating in front of the Step Pyramid in the Saqqara Desert. In that vivid inner revelation, I saw myself walking with the help of two sticks, having broken the right ankle. Actually, the ankle had been injured by a sword from a drunken Macedonia soldier. I was a High Priest in the turbulent and troublesome times which was just on the verge of the collapse of the last Dynasty, as part of the Old Kingdom. The kings ruled from Memphis, since their pyramids were placed at Saqqara. In approximately 332 BC, the Macedonian empire expanded into Egypt with the arrival of Alexander the Great, and known Egypt was death. In that vision, I lived my entire life in Memphis in fast forward motion, witnessing the war, the collapse of the empire and the disintegration of my mind attachments to the ‘sacred’ and ‘holy’ position of High Priest.

I came home from my trip totally intoxicated by the whole experience. I had daily flashbacks and my dreams were flooded with memories of all kinds of relevant and irrelevant details about that past life.  Approximately six or seven months after my journey to Egypt, my beloved Lana, asked me, ‘did you notice something interesting about your ankle?’ I was no longer twisting my right ankle. Today is May 29, 2009 (the same date four years ago, when I received the message that ‘the right time is right now’), and I have not twisted my ankle since. I did not heal my ankle. I healed a big trauma that was stuck in my mind which bothered my body and was stopping my consciousness from being present in the moment. Right now, I don’t see this ’Phantom Memory’ as something negative. This ‘phantom memory’ served the purpose, and I am very grateful for it. It provided me with so many experiences and an understanding about the mechanism of the collective ego-mind, which has helped me to remember my own individual oneness. Even to say that ‘I’ healed the trauma from my previous lifetime in Saqqara stuck in my mind, and this is to give the credit for the healing to my mind. Consciousness is health. Health is total acceptance of All-That-Is. When you are in consciousness, you are automatically allowing, accepting and going through any experiences without mind conclusions or possessiveness. There is no mind to stop the energy flow of the consciousness harmonizing and expanding the being. Therefore, with consciousness, there is no way to experience disharmony, separation, and fragmentation; and consequently, there is no possibility to get stuck in traumas, difficulties, disorders, or diseases.

When the physical death comes, the body is ready to dissolve to the earth, but if the mind is still active, if there is no consciousness in it, if there is only the repetitive, known, and familiar thoughts, then the mind is still dominant over being. If the mind content is still obstructing the consciousness, then that same mind will come back again in the same 3D reality. The mind will incarnate again, creating the same situations, the same circumstances, the same experiences to claim the ownership.  The mind is a library of knowledge, experiences, dreams, desires and memories. In the event of the body death, the mind will choose another womb to continue where it stops with the death of the previous body. Every child in a mother’s womb is blissful, but the child is unaware of it. For nine months the consciousness is resting from traumatic experiences from previous lifetimes, doing nothing. Consciousness is a potential, waiting for the opportunity to actualize itself. For nine months, in a mother’s womb, consciousness is in total rest, relaxation, never wanting or lacking anything. All was provided for the existence, represented by a natural urge of the mother to care for the baby. And, suddenly, the first trauma appears; the mind opens its eyes and clings to the physical mother and secondly to itself. The ego-mind was born again. The rebirth is of the mind, the same reality of the time and the space.  From the womb up until now, the mind develops its ego to the original state it had before it left the previous body. The ego-mind carried within its being the layers and layers of personalities, all created by the collective mind. We have grown, but the past, the experiences, and the memories have not disappeared.  They are hidden, not only in the mind but even in the body. The mind cannot exist without the body.

In India, they burn the body so that the mind is not able to enter into the old body. The mind is always clinging to the old and is in fear of the new.  Therefore, if you burn the body, the mind has to choose a new fresh body, and not be a zombie. Only the bodies of enlightened souls are not burned in India. They are preserved in a special grave called a Samadhi. This is the same word they use to describe enlightenment.  A Preserved enlightened body functions as a medium, so people who require help can be in contact with enlightened souls melted into the whole. 

We can separate our body into four layers. The first body is the dense, physical body. The second is the vital, more subtle body made of electricity, of energy. The third body is a more subtle psychic body, the mind. The fourth is the final, the subtlest of all, the consciousness. The fourth layer is not a layer, but an infinite aspect of nothingness, so there is no-body to obstruct its infinity. The whole point of indoctrination (called Education) is to socially engineer society, and control the consciousness by placing the third body, the mind, in between the first and second body, between the physical and electrical. The real nature of the mind is to be open, fluid, unobstructed, a hollow bamboo for the consciousness to go through.  To experience itself in infinite possibilities through energy, allowing and accepting the physical manifestation of the existence and to come back to itself, to nothingness - from the psychical, through to an energetic empty mind, to the whole. The mind is in ignorance, in repression of the fourth, the consciousness, clogging the entrance with clouds of thoughts, images, impressions, desires, and attachments, therefore the light cannot go through.  Consequently, the whole point of social engineering is to stop the consciousness flowing in the free mind, and create a clinging to the psychical. That is the story of Lucifer who wanted to be God in service of self.  With the consciousness, the whole social conditioning and control would collapse. As a result, God did not create reincarnation, the Lucifer unconsciousness, the ‘Wizard of Oz’, the social collective mind created it. The mind carries the blueprint for the physical. While dying, or even before, we are already planning where to go, and what to do. We already have big plans for the next life. The fantasy in the mind is working fully. God did not push you to enter the womb, it was your decision.

I trust my intuition unconditionally. Intuitive knowingness is always before doubting thoughts. It is a bridge between individual consciousness and Infinite Consciousness, or the lower self and the higher One-Self. Intuition is always infallible; it always directs us in the right course of action in being. ‘Tuition’ means somebody else is giving you information; intuition means there is nobody to give you anything. It is growing within consciousness. And, because it was not given to you by anybody, there is no way you can explain it or put it into words. Once you put the intuition into words, it is not consciousness but calculative ego-mind. For months and months, I was trying to explain the healing of my ankle with logic, with my rational mind, but my intuition proved to me that the healing was beyond all logic, explanation or reasoning. It was a miracle of ordinary divine existence. It was consciousness itself!

If you look at the world and feel that everything is the same, it shows that you have an old mind, you are just a zombie. It is not a question of the world being old; the mirror is the question. If the mirror is clear, then the world is fresh and new.  If the mirror is dusty or foggy, then there is a distorted vision, and how can the world be an exciting place to be?

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