Healing Anxiety


Healing Anxiety

Depression is a total breakdown of the mind. When the person falls below the mind, his mind is divided, fragmented. He is continuously against who he was originally and existentially. Depression means 'I am totally alone here. I am doing this all by myself. Everybody is against me. I have to carry everything on my own shoulders, and there is nobody to look after me. The whole existence is hostile and unfriendly towards me.’ Actually, the existence is not against you—you are against your own consciousness. When you are against oneself, when you are fighting with who you are, you are in anxiety and then depression follows. You are stuck with your past and afraid about the future.

Anxiety enters either with the past or with the future. To live in the past and to be afraid of the future is a lower state of mind. You are trembling. What if something goes wrong? What if I do something wrong? What if the future is a continuation of my unfortunate past? What if I missed the whole point? ‘What if’ is the whole point of anxiety.

Whenever sadness, anxiety, or depression comes in, see it as indications in your being. Anxiety is an indicator—an indication of where to go, how to go, what will happen if you don't go, what kind of experiences will happen if you go, or if you don’t go, and if you go, whether you will reach your destination or not; whether you will have what you need or want, how much energy is needed for the whole travel—the whole kind of indicative, intuitive understanding. Anxiety is good if you are conscious about it, but if you are not, it can sabotage you creating a misery. Anxiety can help you tremendously, but it can sabotage you if you submit your consciousness to your wounded ego-mind.

You cannot choose consciousness, but you can choose not to be unconscious. Look at your unconsciousness. Who is looking at unconsciousness? Consciousness is looking. Unconsciousness cannot look at itself, it can only look at unconsciousness of others.

Look and do nothing. Consciousness is doing nothing to your unconsciousness; so just watch it, as it is not happening to you, but happening to somebody else. Remember. Unconsciousness is not who you are. You are the light. Darkness is only absence of light.

You are just witnessing the anxiety that is indicating the whole journey for you without you being attached to it. You will have to make a choice. Now, what kind of choice? It is not about the left choice or the right choice; it is all about an intuitive choice or the mind’s thinking choice. Intuition is the only choice you can make, but it is not a choice in the ordinary sense. It is more like seeing it consciously, being conscious of it and saying ‘Yes’ to it. The thinking choice is not your choice at all. It is the mind choosing for you because you did not act from your intuition. You decided to ignore the intuition. You were not conscious of it. You see, the intuition always comes before your thinking. Intuition is like a light flash; it is like a flicker. Ignited and infused by the consciousness intuition becomes a tremendous divine force of change.The mind is anxiety, so the intuition will come through the mind. It has to come through the mind, the empty mind, because the mind is a bridge between the known and unknown. You will have to be receptive and open. Intuition indicates the whole truth for you. It gives you understanding on how to heal yourself and your karma. The intuitive flicker is where you know everything—the past, the future, the present moment, the beginning and the end, and beyond. In tuitions is beyond the law of causes and consequences. In that fragment of a moment when the intuition comes, linked with your feeling,  and the conscious knowing of who you are. In that moment the mind is in a kind of shock. The mind stops functioning. You stop breathing, the heart stops beating, everything is empty and receptive, now and consciousness become one, and you know what to do and how to do it. No thought running through your mind and fogging your consciousness. Everything is empty and receptive. Only now, nothingness and consciousness exist. That whole trinity becomes one in you as you. You know now. You know what to do and how to do it. You know the outcome of your doing it or the outcome of you not doing it. You know everything; you know nothing. You have a deep intuitive feeling about the whole, the truth and the lie.

That tiny moment is very fragile but full of potential, full of your awareness. Your whole life can change by accepting or rejecting that flickering intuitive moment. The whole universe will have to change if you consciously act from that moment. You have to consciously act. The conscious act is the acknowledgement of the intuitive message. It all depends on your conscious act. You have to bring consciousness forward and say ‘Yes’, or you have to say ‘No’. And if you don’t act, if you ignore your intuition, the mind activates itself with a rush of thoughts—all kinds of thoughts, positive, negative, for or against—and the thinking overshadows the consciousness, making you trapped in your ego-mind.

Just try this device. Being an onlooker can save you. Anxiety is there, depression is there, sadness is there, unhappiness is there, happiness us there—whatever the feeling, it is over there. Whatever the thought, it is over there, and you are not over there; you are here and now. You are not ever there; you are being conscious that you are now-here. That is all. You know that you are. You are the proof that you are. Your consciousness is the proof. Do you understand? Don't become identified with ‘I am’. Don’t say ‘I am anxious.’ Don’t say ‘I am depressed.’ Don’t say anything. Don’t even say ‘I am conscious’ or ‘I am the witness.’ Delete totally ‘I am’ from your language. Change the whole patterns of your language.

Open your eyes. Are you listening?

You need to clear your perception. The real perception happens only when thinking is not. This is a method of staying detached from any happening.

In most English dictionaries, perception means the basic component in the formation of a concept, the representation of what is perceived. Perceptual experience is a way of conceiving something or becoming aware of something via the senses.

For example, consider a physical symptom. The first and correct perception of a symptom is awareness of the experience. In the case of common head pain, you experience imbalance in your head, or what people generally refer to as a headache. You become conscious of this headache, which is something that isn’t real but is just an experience of certain neuro connections in your brain talking to your consciousness via the experience; nothing else. You don’t define it or judge the experience as positive or negative. You don’t attach yourself to the experience, but just witness it. This is the correct way of seeing.

The second perception arises incredibly quickly, almost instantly. ‘I have a headache’, ‘I am in pain’, or ‘I don’t like this headache.’ This perception has absolutely no relation to the experience itself. It’s a discrimination, such as like or dislike and beautiful or ugly. This discrimination arises from within your own mind.

As long as you remain aware of the first perception and stay in it with awareness, you will go through the experience without attachment to it. If you lose awareness and yield to the second perception so that you identify with the experience, you are discriminating with your mind.

Now, suppose you feel thirsty, sleepy, or hungry. Hunger can only be felt by the periphery. You don’t need food, any fuel, but the body needs it. Remember, when hunger arises, it’s arising in the body, not in you. You are simply aware of it.

Don’t say, ‘I’m hungry.’ Always say, ‘I am aware that my body is hungry’, or ‘I am aware that my body is thirsty, sleepy, tired.’ Place the emphasis on your awareness, not on your attachments. If you start to feel ill, never say, ‘I am becoming ill’ or ‘I am ill.’ Place the emphasis on your knowing and say within, ‘My body is off balance.’

If you are beginning to feel old, never say, ‘I am becoming old.’ Just say, ‘My body is becoming old.’ Then even in the moment of your death, you will be aware of what’s changeable and what’s unchangeable—of what’s illusion and what’s real. You will know, ‘My body is dying, but I can’t die. I’m just changing into another shape, moving house.’

What do you do when you are hungry? You mind looks for its favourite food at different places—in your fridge, supermarkets and restaurants—to find the right place where you can have your food.

If you identify as the hunger, then you cannot be a witness. You see, hunger is there, but you are not the hunger. Meditate! Who is saying ‘I am hungry?’ Who knows that you are hungry? How can you be the hunger? You need someone else outside hunger to declare the attachment to hunger.

Understand that nothing is unchanging except awareness, which is always the same.

You can’t know awareness, but you can be in a state of awareness. Awareness isn’t an object. You need distance in order to know something. But with awareness, how can you know One-Self? You can’t look at One-Self, and you can’t observe One-Self. You can only be aware.

When you are looking at an illness, you are the knower, and the illness is the known. When you say, ‘I am ill’, you become the object of your knowledge. This causes you to become attached to the changing world, and you identify yourself with appearances. Now, you are ill. The reality is established.

The whole point of this method is to be able to discriminate.

You can’t know One-Self directly. However, you can eliminate objects of knowledge. When there are no objects of knowledge—when you can’t claim that you know something, and there’s nothing but emptiness—a moment comes when consciousness simply is. In consciousness, there’s nothing to be conscious of, nothing to know—only the pure energy that harmonises and reconnects you with what is. Only detachment can take you to your health.

Everything is changing, but the real you is unchangeable. If you can remember that you aren’t the change, detachment will follow. How can you be attached when everything is changing and you are unchangeable?

You are perfect as you are. No adjustment is needed; no change is needed. You are here and now. There is no coming and no going. The Whole is simply you. Just be aware that you are! Just be alert! Nothing else. You have been here since the beginning of existence, and you will be the witness of the end of the world. But for you, for the real you, there is no beginning and no end.

When you look at your state of health, or something that satisfies or pleases you, and you are happy with things, you have a feeling that this is going to remain forever. This is where the method is crucial. Don’t expect that this is going to remain forever. Only awareness is forever, while everything else is changing. You may experience happiness in this moment but then unhappiness in the next, so how can you feel any attachment?

Look at your emotions. Look at your mind. Look at your personality or your character. All of these are just one state continuously changing into another state. This world is a world in trans-form-ation, moving from one form to another form. Your consciousness can’t experience transformation, though it can experience transcendence from moment to moment in the now, which is all the same Now.

Be in this world. Be part of it, feel it, enjoy it, but never cling to it. When you don’t cling to it, when you utterly discriminate, by and by you’ll rediscover your internal timeless middle point.

Don’t be afraid of life. Whenever you are afraid, the mind’s conditioning has possessed you. Move into the ever-changing world—don’t run away from it. Consume it through consciousness, but don’t cling to it. Remain in the centre of your being. Be consciousness. Witness.

Don’t fight with change or try to change whatever change may be occurring. Don’t waste your energy by struggling with it. Don’t fight disease, suffering, pain, stress, anxiety, or depression. There’s no need to fight these things because any change that may be occurring can’t affect who you really are.

You might ask the question, ‘In this world, do I have to choose?’ No, you don’t! Your mind means choice, and your consciousness means choicelessness. When you are conscious of yourself, the whole is choosing for you, and you just intuitively follow the path.

There are three types of people: one type clings to the world of change; another runs away from the world of change; and the third is the extremely rare individual who consumes this world with consciousness, allowing everything simply to unfold. In allowing the world to unfold, you aren’t concerned with what’s happening because you have no need of a particular thing to happen. The world is simply Here and you are Now to be playful and joyful, since you know who and what you are. You are already healthy. Can you see that?

Anxiety is psychological. It is the idea that you are wrong, that you are not enough to be your real self. It is the lost meaning of who you are naturally and existentially.


Meditation is going with the flow of the moment right now. In meditation there is no question of any resistance to any happening in Now. Right now doesn’t contain any past or any future. Right now is empty of thoughts, empty of the mind. In a meditative state of being, you live in utter relaxation, free from past and future. You live in absolute acceptance of all that is right now and all that isn't right now. Whatsoever life brings now is a gift, and you are very grateful for it. Do you understand?

Healing Anxiety
Healing Anxiety

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