Who are you Ivan?

Question; It is difficult to define your work. What is your mission on this plane of existence? Is your philosophy a non-dual, because you are very passionate about it? Who are you?…

Who am I? I don’t know! I know where I am. I am here to be present in now. What I am doing here? I am giving you a taste of meditation, a taste of real, a taste of something from the beyond. The taste is so catching, so miraculous, so healing, that once you have the glimpses of divine, you will want it more. Once you tasted nothing beyond the mind, you tasted the wholeness. My whole work is to help you to taste that divinity, to help you to remember that you are already present in Now? Are you now?

That is my basic reason to speak. Have you noticed that I don’t speak about my experience of meditation at all; but I speak about my experiences, about my own obstacles to meditation. I sppek a lot about the mind. If you don’t understand the functioning of the mind, you will never come to your liberation. That is why I am here. And you obviously noticed that I just speak my language, without any worry about how well I present it, and how would you perceive it. I don’t worry about, whether my grammar is suitable for your language or your linguistic taste. I don’t care about your mind, but I do care about your awareness. That’s why I talk about those things.

I just use my mind to talk about those things. I am talking about the mechanism of your mind, because I was suffering tremendously from my reactive mind, until I put the mind at the right place. I am not against my mind, therefore, I am not against your mind, I am only against your attachment to it.  You see, you are not your mind. That is the only message I can give it to you. It is not about me at all– it is about joy of the now.

I don’t believe in any dualistic philosophy, and I don’t believe in any non-dual philosophy, because I am not philosopher. I am not passionate or dispassionate being either, because I am not influenced by emotions and controlled by the mind. I don’t believe in the philosophy of positive thinking, nor do I believe in the philosophy of negative thinking. Actually, I am not believer at all, and I am not nonbeliever neither, I am simply beyond any dualistic and non-dualistic philosophy. I live with my awareness as compassionate being. My total being is holistic. I am all for the whole and wholeness is all for me. I live in symbiosis with the whole, and the whole is very symbiotic with me.

You see, the whole is ultimate truth. Whatsoever IS simply IS. I don’t have a good day, nor do I have a bad day. Right now is available to my awareness in every moment, good and bad, day and night, life and death, everything is one in my awareness.

Awareness is beyond duality. This ‘beyond’ is not a philosophy, and it is not capable of being imagined or mentally grasped by the mind. Mind can only form a mental representation of the dual. The mind is in disbelief of non-dual but it is still mentally grasping it. Reasoning is basically dualistic. Existence doesn’t reason with me– it is simply beyond any duality.

I don’t have any mission. I don’t have any problem if you don’t like me, or if you don’t understand me. I am not invested in your acceptance of me and my work. I simply enjoy doing what I do, whether you like it or not, whether you understand or not.

I am not a philosopher, because I am not interested in creating any system of beliefs. I don’t want to give you theories and hypotheses. I am here to draw your attention to your attachment to non-existential mind, so your existential potential can flourish. I am here to destroy your ego, your thinking, imagining and projecting, so you can give birth to your Divine within. I am here to make you aware of now. So my work is not for masses, but for those individuals who are brave enough to jump into unknown with me. My whole effort is to give a no-mind to those few.

I am not a teacher. I am not a guru, a master, a prophet, or a missionary. I am nobody, with no name and no attachment. I am nothing. I am simply here talking. My talking is not who I am, because I am not my mind.

I don’t belong to any sect, ideology or any religion. I am free individual, simply interested in helping you to be available to the existence right Now. There is only talking from my side, and listening from yours, if you are available.

I have to use the language, logic, reasoning; I have to use the words to remind you to start using the language of silence. Words are not silence, but there is no other way for you to come into the presence. If I use the language of silence, we will never meet. That is why I talk, and maybe, at one point, when you have developed a little meditativeness, you might be able to hear me, and understand.

Silence is one silence– it cannot be two. One silence is beyond my mind and beyond your mind. Do you get it? I am not teaching you anything. I am not lecturing you. I just speak. Now, it is up to you to hear the silence beyond my words and the silence beyond your mind.

My entire work emphasizes the importance of meditation, awareness and love - qualities that the society suppressed by adherence to static, dogmatic belief systems, exclusive cultures, religious tradition and socialization.